The mask of light

Nothing is certain, not anymore.
Time seems endless and yet rapid.
It is the uncertainty that drives the best of us.
The drama and fear keeps the race going.
For fear will force its way into a fragile mind.
It will confound and crack it.
The uncertainty will eventually overrun.
Nothing is clear, not ever.
Stains in glass cloud what's behind the surface.
The shining light does nothing to unveil the hidden.
Shadows and doubt are all that are truly visible.
The light just covers up the truth.
For if there was never any light.
All would be certain.

Waiting

The minutes on the digital clock in front of me seem to rarely change.
My shift ends soon, but does it really?
The minutes seem like years.
There's been so much chaos and uncertainty lately.
Nothing Makes Sense.
Maelstrom. Confusion. Frustration.
It's all too much.
But not really.
The turbulence is what really keeps me going.
But when will the chaos end?
When will the chaos consume me?
Will it consume me or will I be the one who consumes it?
"F" this maelstrom.
There hasn't been a solid rock in years.
When will my shift be over?

Was it a mistake?

I just can’t believe This.
I can’t even remember anymore, the way it was.
It’s just so strange. Never
did I imagine it would happen the way
it went last night. I
would like to imagine it was planned.
Maybe it’s better to let it be sporadic and Not
let it spin out of control. This is my
love after all. I just hope she knows my intention
was so dear. I
don’t mean to hurt, so I’ve got
to make things right. So
this is where I need to be brave.
We thought to much to drink
was just an expression. So with beer in hand
we lost
our simple friendship. It was probably my
doing. We had both lacked discretion
either way. It's
just not
that simple. What
if last night didn’t turn out like it did? I'm
so used to
us just being friends, but is it just?
To just wanna
have her like I did, on top of the friendship? I try
to hide my feelings but now that seems wasted. You
silly boy, what were you thinking? You need to be on
the next train out of this room. I'm
stuck here though. Something holds me here. Maybe I’m curious
about what she thinks. I hope she’s not thinking I used her. She’s waking. “For
I am no False Dimitri. I will forever be true to you.”
But I should leave before I get caught.
Go ahead girl, you have my attention.

A short story I wrote after walking to work one day.

I was walking past a Methodist church and there were these two elderly people standing out front of the building. They were both looking at me in an almost entranced expression.

"I'm sorry but it's a nine o'clock assembly," the woman said.

I stopped about ten feet from them and looked at my watch. it was ten o'clock already. i don't know why I bothered because I'm not even Methodist. I'm non-practicing Catholic, so why would I even bother with these people?

"Yeah, we hope to see you at tomorrow's assembly," the man said.
I had no intention at all in going to their assembly but I thought I'd mess with them instead of just admitting I'm not Methodist to them.

"I don't know if I would be allowed in there." I said and nodded towards the church.

"Even those in sin can still attend assembly," the lady replied.

"Well, I'm not even of your religion and my gods would be very upset."

"I'm sorry. Did you say 'gods'?"

"Yeah, I'm pagan."

"Pagan? I thought that belief was dead," the man said.

"It will live as long as the Earth does," I said.

"Oh, well you know the Lord's way is the true way and it's not to late for you," the woman said.

"Do not try and convert me to your mockery religion!" I said as I took a step forward and clenched my fists to emphasize my statement. The woman was visibly startled by my outburst.

"I'm...I'm sorry I only meant to..."she started to say but I cut her off.

"Enough! I've had it with you!" I said. I then held my arm straight towards them with an open hand. My palm was facing them. I started to mumble gibberish that was a mix of German and Klingon from Star Trek. The two became very uncomfortable. I walked past them and they stared at me while I passed. I don't think they woman blinked once.

"What just happened?" I head the woman say when I was about thirty feet from them.

I turned around and said back to them plainly, "I wished you happiness for the rest of your lives."

I turned around and continued on my way. A smile found its way to my face as I walked.

Just a Riddle

Where ever I go I leave a trail behind.
My favorite color is white,
for it is easiest for me to find.

I can do things of great importance,
like hold the key to a fortune and
I can help in leisurely activities.

I can create new imagery or
I can destroy it with only a few slashes.

i have not a long life span
depending on how active I am,
yet to my own knowledge I don't exist.

"Untittled"

We go through life
like driftwood
We know not what we do.
Where will we go?

Like driftwood
we are thrown about.
Where will we go?
To the heavens?

We are thrown about
while others shout,
"To the heavens!"
If only we could.

While others shout,
"To Damnation"
If only we could
Be done with these questions.

We go through life
until the end.
We know not what we do.

"The Wolf"

You believe that I'm a
man you can trust that's leading
to safety and security. Man
if only really knew. And the lies
I've told were oh so believable that I weave
them into each other to confuse you more. Are
you going to let me take you further? Oh,
my deary you are so
easily tricked. The web of confusion I placed on you is so intricate
that you'll never break free. Oh
how I wait for the finale so
I may untangle these webs I made so intricate.